Anger

Anger, what a title! I suppose I first thought of it when a relative was saying at our home and was watching something special on the television. I came home from work and sat down to hear this relative say,(while setting the remote in front of me) you can turn it. Now "they" were sitting watching this show and even though "they" gave up the remote(a sign of control I think),it still put me in the position of being the bad guy or insensitive jerk if I chose to change the channel to the news. I guess my anger(which I don't often express) comes from the manipulative way people get what they want when on the surface it seems they are being nice. Ok, so much for what set me off on this little story. As I stated earlier, I don't express my anger very easily. I tend to stuff a lot of my emotions (yes, I'm a guy), but on the other hand there are those who express themselves way too much. Some people seem to be always angry or hurt or resentful. I have been described as a very easy going person who seldom seems upset. I suppose part of this is true because I don't sweat the small stuff. What does it matter in the long run? There is the basis for my problem. When should we sweat the small stuff and when should we let it go? I struggle with meaningful communications and am striving to rectify this. One of the ways I am trying to do better is by writting in this blog. Sort of venting in writting but not having the guts to actually say it. I do know that I have a lot to say and maybe with the help of some of my friends in blog-land I will tell a story of growing up, going to war, being remarried, having kids and stepkids, of finding Jesus right by my side and not knowing it, of becoming a Servant-of-Christ. So until next time, "Happy trails to you, until we meet again, happy trails to you, keep smiling until until then".